Dr Appts

I had a DR appointment today, and was able to hear my little Junebug's heartbeat again; 155bpm :)  nice and strong!  I also set the appointment to find out the gender; January 16th at 4pm, Kyle's 33rd birthday!!  What a nice birthday present :) 

Today I also met the the pediatrician to do a prenatal visit.  We just went over the way the office functions, and how things will work once the baby is born; like when he will come to the hospital to check on the baby and when the baby needs to come into the office.  I think I'll be very happy with him!

I also got a travel system today from a friend today that she used with her son.  It's the Eddie Bauer Stonewood Travel System.I love it!  It's super cute, gender generic, and fit the budget :)  I love how we things are starting to come today and we are gathering items!!

Bump-Date: Week 15

Baby Size: 4"; Apple
Baby Weight: 2.5oz
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Week 15 just came to a close and tomorrow I have a DR appointment.  At this appointment I will be able to schedule my ultrasound appointment to find out if its a boy or girl!  Super excited!  Hopefully within the next couple of weeks we can find out!!  I am excited that we get to hear the heartbeat tomorrow though :)  I haven't heard it in a month and it feels like a lifetime.

This week was pretty easy in the baby department, but I do have a head cold/sinus issues.  My head feels like it wants to explode, I keep sneezing, my eyes are itchy, and I feel like crap!  Hopefully the dr can help me out tomorrow.

Christmas was a success this week!  Got all presents wrapped and sent out early this year.  My parents do Christmas on Christmas day, and I don't think my 3 year old niece Rachael has ever seen so many presents!  She spent the night with me on the 23rd and we went over to my parents and she found 1 present under the tree with her name, and she thought that was all she had.  We went into my old bedroom and the bed was COVERED with presents!  The little girl had a stack of presents higher than she is tall!  She was soooo happy when she opened them all :)

This week I also got my crib and changing table in.  The crib matches everything perfectly, but the changing table is a little dark. I really like the changing table, but I'm going to keep my eyes open in case I find one that matches a little better.

Well my eyes are starting to hurt from all the...whatever this is...and I shall close with a picture...

Bump-Date: Week 14

Baby Size: 3.5"; Lemon
Baby Weight: 1.5oz
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This week went better than last; no feeling like I was going to pass out! I have been feeling weak though, I will be sure to mention that to the dr next week.  I ordered a crib last week and got it today :) matches everything perfectly. I also got a changing table in today, but haven't opened the box yet.
I hope everyone have a very Merry Christmas!!!

Bump-Date: Week 13

Baby Size: 3"; Medium Shrimp
Baby Weight: 0.5oz
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This week I found myself feeling a little weak most of the day.  I went to the mall one day, walked from JCPenny to Motherhood and when I left I almost passed out.  I got hot, sweaty, dizzy, and started seeing black while I was walking.  So I grabbed a bottle of water and sat down for about 10-15 minutes before I felt like I could walk again without getting that feeling.  I thought that maybe I needed to eat something, so I went to Fazolis and grabbed some lunch and called my DRs nurse. I had to leave a message, and they didn't get back to me for almost 3 hours!  That kind of irritated me, but when I talked with my sister about it, she said that they call back right away when it's something bad, so since they weren't calling back I guess that means they weren't too worried.  The nurse said that I need to eat every couple of hours so that my blood sugar doesn't get low along with my blood pressure dropping.  So I've been eating every few (not two) hours and have really noticed I feel better.  I don't feel as weak and the tiredness isn't as bad.  Hopefully next week I can report no weakness or passing out feeling!

Here's a new picture for you!  Say goodbye first trimester!

Bump-Date: Week 12

Baby Size: 2"; Lime
Baby Weight: 0.5oz
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Week 12 has followed suit, and was relatively easy going! I have noticed the tired spells are changing up a bit; previously I got tired around 9-10am and again around 4-4:30pm. Now I get tired around 4 to the point I could fall asleep walking! Not sure why the pattern changed but I noticed it this week. Also I pee ALL THE TIME!! I get up at least 3-4 times a night...I don't even get a drink when I'm up, so I don't encourage the cycle, doesn't matter I still pee!! So bad a gal at work had me keep a tally; 5 times from 9am to noon! 5 times in 3 hours...seriously?!? Ugh! Plus it will only get worse as the baby grows :( oh well I can deal ;) well I'm headed to bed, it's past my bedtime. Goodnight!

Heartbeat

I had a doctors appointment at 11:00 this morning, and after a bit of searching, he was able to find it!  The heart rate was 168bpm; so nice and strong!  It was the most amazing sound in the world.  I went a few weeks back with Emily when she got to hear hers for the first time, but it sounded so much different when it was mine.  That's my baby, in my belly, with it's own heartbeat.   Just amazing...

Bump-Date: Week 11

Baby Size: 1.5"; Fig
Baby Weight: <0.5oz
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Week 11 was relatively easy and the baby was the size of a lime!  I started noticing some pulling from my right hip down to my pelvic bone, but it's just everything stretching and making room for baby!  I am still tired and having issues with my blood pressure in church, but short of that, I haven't really had any bad symptoms!  Sorry there isn't much to talk about, it was a rather uneventful week :) which isn't a bad thing!

 Sorry the panties are showing! haha!

Bump-Date: Week 10

Baby Size: 1"; Kumquat

Baby Weight: <0.5oz
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Well I just ended week 10! Everything was good this week, and I've started looking at furniture to see what all I really like...I've been looking just not actively looking and comparing reviews/prices!  It's getting exciting. The baby was the size of a prune this week and now has all fingers, toes, and major organs!  I can't wait until December 1st to hear the heartbeat, makes me super excited.  This week I noticed that my lower abdomen is sore depending on how to sit/stand/lay, I assume it's everything stretching...speaking of stretching...I am getting these light white stretch marks!  From the research I've done, it doesn't matter how much lotion you do or do not use, nor the type of lotion you use, if you're going to get them...you're going to get the regardless!  Boo...hopefully they stay white, otherwise I guess I'll just have to deal with it.

Today's Thanksgiving and  I'm thankful for Kyle, our expanding family, our families and friends!  Thank you to everyone who influences our lives :)

Bump-Date: Week 9

Baby Size: <1"; Grape or Olive

Baby Weight: <0.5oz
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This week the baby is the size of a green olive (.9 inches)!  Baby Olivia or Oliver this week...haha!  Symptoms have yet evaded another week; little to no nausea, just sleepy.  The last few weeks I have been getting dizzy, light headed, clammy, and hot in Church while kneeling or standing.  Then yesterday I went to the restroom at work and almost blacked out when I stood up.  I called and talked with the nurse at the dr's office and she said it's pretty normal because my heart is having a hard time adjusting to the excessive blood and blood flow, so when I stand up or stay in one position too long my blood pressure bottoms out; it's called postural hypertension.  They said it's common in the first trimester and not to worry unless it happens while sitting down.  I just don't like that feeling and the sickly feeling I have afterwards for like 30 minutes.

I noticed this week that my stomach has gotten noticeably harder in my lower abdomen, and I am 'growing' this 'ring' about 1/2" - 1" below my belly button...I'm assuming this is baby fat forming haha!  I also noticed certain jeans are too tight while others are too big.  I have a pair of low rise pants that are uncomfortable to wear because of where they hit my belly.  However, I have a pair of super low rise pants that are too big!  It's like my pooch moved up my stomach to my newly formed 'ring' so the low rise pants are falling off.  It's kind of humorous and annoying all at the same time.

Well I'm sleepy so I'm going to wrap this up, but here's a picture for week 9...still a little tubby and bloat, but take my word there is firmness under my 'ring' that you can see haha! :)

Bump-Date: Week 8

Baby Size: <1"; Kidney Bean

Baby Weight: <0.5oz
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Just realized I'm a week behind!  Week 8 came and went relatively easy.  I felt great, just a little tired.  I have noticed that more of my clothes are starting to fit differently, and I'm growing this...this....'ring' around my belly button area!  Not sure where it came from, but seemed like I woke up with it.  I've also noticed my dog Molly increasingly wanting to lay on my stomach and getting upset and jumpy if I won't let her...seems to be easier to just give in.  I think it's cute though...like she knows there's a baby in there :)  Oh well...on to week 9...no picture this week sorry!

Bump-Date: Week 7

Baby Size: <1"; Blueberry

Baby Weight: <0.5oz
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This week the little bean is the size of a blueberry (1/2 inch), and its arm and leg buds are starting to transform into real arms and legs!  Little fingers, little toes, everything!  The past week has been good, nausea hasn't been horrible, but I am super tired.  I always heard pregnant people say how they are tired, but this is a different type of tired; it's more of an exhaustion then sleepy tiredness.  I know what is going on inside me, but I just didn't realize how much it would physically drain my body.  I mean I knew, I just didn't realize what it would really feel like.

Met our baby...

Well today was our first ultrasound appointment and got to see our little bean!  Funny enough...my parents pointed out that it looks like an inverted black-eyed pea!  Originally the doctor thought I was 6w5d with a due date of June 10th, but once he measured he saw I was 6w1d with a due date of June 14th.  I knew it was going to be later than my due date based on my last period because I ovulated late by 4 days according to my OPK.  Sure enough, I was right!  Everything was great, the measurements were right on for 6 weeks and we even got to see the flutter of the heartbeat!!  The dr said the heartbeat looked strong, so we were happy.  The only thing that the dr pointed out was that the baby attached at the bottom of my uterus, but he said that wasn't a big concern and could be handled at labor if something was wrong.  So without further ado...I introduce to you...Baby Wichman!

Oooooooo Ahhhhh it's so cute!  Weren't my parents right?!?  Doesn't it look kind of like an inverted black-eyed pea?!?

So now the debate begins...when to tell everyone.  I have mixed feelings about it.  I would love to tell everyone, but at the same time I would like to air on the side of caution.  I don't feel like telling people increases our chances of a miscarriage or anything, but at the same time I worry if we tell people and something happens then what?  With that being said, if something does happen we can just be honest and tell them X happened.  I don't think miscarrying is something to be ashamed of or anything, it's just something....well personal really.  Kyle is ready to tell, and I am, but to just cautiously tell maybe.  Ya know...tell a few and let the word spread on its own...just not announce it over the loud speaker at Walmart or anything.  We will just have to talk it out I guess :) and decide what's best for us!

Excited

So only 5 days until we get to meet our new addition to the family!  I'm super, super excited and can't wait! I pray everything is progressing well and that I will be far enough along so we can see the heart beat.  I still am in a bit of shock that I have a little bean growing in me, but I love the feeling.  It's strange, but I always have this little smile on my face and I'm always touching my belly; I'm just content :)

Bump-Date: Week 6

Baby Size: <1"; Lentil

Baby Weight: <0.5oz
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The baby is developing its nose, mouth, ears, and eyes this week.  The baby is even pumping some of its own blood!

Kind of early, but I wanted to start posting pictures this week so maybe we can see a gradual change!  Ok, ok, that's not a baby bump...that's pootch & a lot of bloat, but it gets us a baseline...

Disbelief

I am in total disbelief today! I just want to scream to the world I'M PREGNANT!!! Had an urge to stop everyone I passed at work and say oh yeah by the way there's a baby on board! I just cannot believe it right now. I am trying not to be too excited because it's still early, but I can't help it.
Last night while laying in bed, Kyle did his usual good nights, but altered. He said "good night mall-malls" (that's our Dachshund Molly), "good night Laura" and gave me a kiss, then "night night bean" and he rubbed my belly. I teared up! It was so sweet!
So the spring will be super busy. My sister is due April 20th, I graduate grad school May 12th, my little brother graduates high school May 26th, and my tentative due date is June 10th! Goodness!! Busy busy, but totally worth it!
Aaaaahhhhhhh I AM PREGNANT!!!!!

Weekly Updates

So I decided to start doing weekly updates...bump-dates if you will...and adding belly pictures in a couple weeks when the pooch sets in!  :)  Be on the look out...

Kyle told his folks...

We visited Kyle's parents in July/August for about 10 days, and Kyle hasn't really talked with them since...they live in Montana, us in Texas, so it isn't unusual for them to go weeks without talking. Anyway, his mom called to check on us and he ended up telling her. She is excited! After he talked with her he called is sister in New York and told her. I talked with her for a little bit about it all, and she put in an order for a niece :) he wasn't planning on telling them until after the ultrasound next Friday, but I guess he couldn't hold in his excitement :) fine by me!!

Told Some Family...

So I told my sister about being pregnant (can't say that enough), almost instantly after we found out.  Then this weekend, we told my brother and my parents.  Kyle was a little iffy about telling people so soon, I think he's scared about something happening, but I told him whether we tell them or not it will or will not ensure something does or does not happen.  I also told him that I wanted to share with my family because then if something did happen I would want them to be there for us during that time.  So anyway, we decided to tell my parents Saturday.  After I took the tests on Monday I took pictures with my phone, and Kyle said I should text one to my brother and have him show my mom.  So here's how the text conversation went:

Me:  Picture
Jacob: R u pregnant? if so do u want me to tell mom or wait for u to
Me: we are almost there so show her
Jacob: she cant see good though lol

At this point Kyle and I are turning into their drive way...we only live like a 1/4 mile apart.  So I asked Jacob if he told her and he said no.  So we went to show here the picture and guess what...she can't see it!  She put her glasses on but still couldn't make it out.  So I told  her we were having a baby.  She was a little shocked, but excited. I then walked up to my dad who was in the kitchen and told him he was going to be a pops x2 in the spring!  He goes what?!  How did that happen? Haha!  They seemed pretty excited, not all jumping up and down or anything, but they aren't like that :)


I'm so glad that we told them!  I was having a difficult time going over there this past week and not say something to them about it!  Now we just have to tell Kyle's parents before we announce it to the world.  I'm not sure when he wants to tell them, but I don't really want to tell a lot of people until we are closer to being out of the first trimester, just to be safe!  Anyway, I'm getting tired, so I'm headed to the shower and then to bed!  Talk to you soon!!

October 21...so close yet so far....

We go for the confirmation appointment, and to hopefully see the heartbeat, on October 21.  It seems so close, only 16 days away...yet it feels sooooo far away!  I am hoping the next couple weeks fly by, but my schedule at work looks pretty open so it will probably drag on and on and on.  I'm just so excited!  AHHH

Still Smiling!

I don't think I've stopped smiling since Monday around 1:30pm!  I am so ecstatic!  The normal first few weeks symptoms have started showing up.  I find myself more and more tired, but I heard your body uses over a quarter of its energy during this time for the baby, so I'll definitely take the tired!  It's strange though, I go the bed early, wake up on time, then feel like I hit a wall around 10:30am, and my second wind comes around  1:00pm, then I'm good until 7 or 8 pm and the cycle starts all over again.  I'm so pooped, I wish I could curl up under my desk right now and take a power nap...nobody would notice...right?!?  In addition to being sleepy, I am starting to feel a bit queezy from time to time, but I haven't lost my cookies yet, so fingers crossed that I won't!  I'm not feeling too terribly hungry either.  Yesterday Dana and I went to McAlisters and got 1/2 a McAlisters club and chicken tortialla soup in a bread bowl.  Typically I will eat the entire bread bowl, soup and all, but not yesterday.  I walked away with not even half the soup gone!  Totally not like me!  I guess that's not a bad thing, but the baby needs all it can get right now.  I just need to make sure I take all my vitamins!  Well 10-4 readers, mommy is going back to work!

What all we've done

I am sitting here thinking about all the months we tried and tests we did to get this far...to luckily get pregnant naturally. And honestly...I would do it all again. I would go through the stress, pain, and tears for this every day if I needed to. I fully believe this journey brought Kyle and I closer, at least I hope he feels it did too. He is my rock, my salvation,  and my best friend. As we start this new chapter in our lives, I know there will be many bumps along the way, but he will be there with me holding my hand.

My Very Own...

So, I'm out of work today because I'm sick!  I woke up somewhere between 1am & 2am and was sweating my butt off with the chills and I pretty much felt like I got hit by a bus!  My pjs were soaked and I feel like crap.  I woke up around 6am and decided I didn't feel up to par enough to go to work, so around 6:30 I called my boss and told her I wasn't feeling good and wouldn't be in today.  Kyle ended up calling in today too, so we both rolled over and went back to sleep.  I felt like crap most of the morning, and while watching Maury and eating a bowl of vegetable soup, I picked up my phone and started counting my days until AF comes to visit.  Well last week I was spotting, bloated, moody, emotional, etc. just as I am every month when AF comes.  Only...SHE NEVER CAME!  Ok, ok Laura calm down there is a simple explanation for everything...I O'd late by like 3 days. Ok so if I O'd late then I should start 3 days late.  My projected start date was Sunday (yesterday) and I didn't start.  At this point Kyle leaves to run to town and by some seed to drill in the pasture for the cows.  So I'm thinking to myself that I don't really feel like I'm going to start today or something; the bloating and mild cramps were gone.  At this point I'm telling myself that I'm paranoid and just letting myself get my hopes up, but I decided to go test...worst case I'm not pregnant and not out anything but a HPT.  So I go pee and lay the stick down in front of me on the floor, and I'm fixing to stand up when I see the line start coming in...not any line THE line! I thought to my self, oh shit! and I jumped up and took it into the bigger part of the bathroom and sure enough there were two freaking lines!  TWO, count that 1, 2! I picked up my cell phone and call Kyle to see if he's almost home...what do I hear?  His cell phone ringing on the counter...ugh he never has his phone with him! Then I hear his truck pulling into the yard, and I meet him at the door.  He comes walking up on the deck with a can crusher, and I ask if he got me something?  He said yes, and I told him I had something for him too.  I told him I'd trade, and he put out his hand and I put the test in his hand and he hands me the can crusher.  He looks at it, looks at me, looks at it, looks at me. And says what does that mean?  I smiled and he says, you're pregnant?!?  I said yeah and started crying!  He gave me a huge squeeze and just held me.  I was ecstatic and he was happy!  I just didn't know what to say and he just smiled and chuckled!  So we went on with the day and I kept periodically checking the stick like the results were going to magically disappear or something.  This evening after supper I decided to pee on a digital one, just to further confirm that I wasn't misreading the first test, and it popped up pregnant with no not in front of it! Pregnant, that's me, that's my status now!  Pregnant!  I called my doctors nurse this afternoon to see when I needed to schedule a confirmation appointment and she said to schedule it now for after the 15th of October, so at 2:20pm Friday, October 21 we will officially get to see our bambino!  So ecstatic!

BFP...just not mine...

Well there is going to be a baby in the family...my sister is expecting baby #2!!  I found out a few weeks back, but just now wanted to post about it in case something happened.  Must say that I secretly hope she's having a little girl :)  I'd like to have the first boy...selfish I know, but I'd like to :)  Her due date is in April, maybe she'll have it early...like March 30th...nothing special that day, but it's my birthday!

So I must say how I found out!  It was August 19th, and my sister was at my house because she was going to my HSG with me since Kyle had to work.  So I was holding my niece, who just turned 3, and was telling her how she needs to tee-tee in the potty like a big girl--she is anti-using the potty and has no interest AT ALL!--anyway, I was telling her how she needed to be a big girl because what if mommy and daddy had another baby and then they would have to wipe the baby's booty and hers!  We talked for a couple minutes back and forth about it, and then she says "my mommy has a baby in her hinny."  I rolled it off and said whatever, she repeated a little louder "my MOMMY has a BABY in her hinny."  I laughed and glanced at my sister who would NOT make eye contact with me at all!  I said something to my niece again and she yelled in her sweet little voice 'MY MOMMY HAS A BABY IN HER HINNY!!!!" I looked at my sister and she had a couple of tears rolling down her face and I asked if she had a baby in her hinny, and she said, 'well not my hinny.'  I was soooo happy!  She said she didn't want to tell me yet, certainly not on the day when I was going to get tested for our TTC issues.  I thought it was adorable how my niece told me, and thought my sisters reaction as her daughter was telling me was hilarious!  Definitely a memory I will forever cherish!

Since then, they have told my parents, brother, and a couple other people.  My niece will not even acknowledge the possibility of the baby being a boy.  She wants a baby 'gir' as she says, really bad!  It's too cute, you can ask her well what if it's a boy, and she responds 'what if its a gir?'  Sometimes it's like seriously, is she only 3?!?

Well I need to wrap this up!  Talk with you soon!

Blood Work Results

My goodness work has been crazy!  By the time I get home I'm so tired...too tired to blog...too tired to PIN!  What's wrong with me?!?

So I went yesterday morning and got my blood work done.  I got my blood work results in today and everything look normal.  Thyroid was a 1.37, Progesterone was 10, and something else I can't remember the name of was a 13.  I asked what the next step was and they said we aren't doing anything else until they get Kyle's results in.  I'm hoping he will go get them done ASAP!  Just wanted to update real quick...back to work!

Today

Well I went to the hysterograph today.  My uterus shape is good and my tubes are now clear; I had blockages in both tubes.  The Dr. & nurse were super nice & explained everything before we started and as they did it.  It was neat to see my junk on the screen too!  It was very uncomfortable and as the day went on pain kept coming and going in waves; a 3.5 hour nap helped though! As I laid on the table with tears streaming down my face I had to remind myself it was all worth it & would be in the end.  The dr said since the plumbing looks good it could be hormones...what me hormonal?!? Haha! I'm doing that testing at the end of the month anyway so no biggie. Hopefully the hormone tests come back normal too, I'm really hoping for a green flag on everything!
Kyle wasn't able to go with me as planned, he had to work and has to all weekend.  Not sure when he will make it for his testing, but hopefully soon! Luckily my sister Emily was able to go with me; not sure what I'd do without her! She wasn't able to go back with me, but it helped to know she was there waiting on me. :) thanks Emily!
It still baffles me how some people get pregnant without really trying while others have difficulty; I guess that's just nature.  It isn't alway even or fair, but it's life.

Sanity

Hi, my name is Laura, and I lack sanity today!

I'm having a mini freak out today.  Not sure that the testing is a good idea.  I have so many thoughts running through my head, and poor Dana is having to listen to them all!  I <3 you Dana!!  While I don't always like what she says, it's always what I need to bring me back to reality...she's just having a difficult time throwing that reality at me today.  I just, I just....don't know!  I am a bit of a control freak you could say.  I like to know what's going on, when it's going on, and everything; not just about baby making, everything!  No wonder I had high blood pressure at my last appointment...

Anyway, I'm starting to think I'm crazy...nuts...psycho...whatever.  I know we haven't been trying to terribly long, but at the same time I feel like its been years.  Is this a good idea?  Is it a bad idea?  Hell if I know!  Uggghhh! I just have so many mixed emotions today about it all.  Maybe people are right, may be we should wait and try longer.  I guess it's too late now, better now then later right.  If there's nothing wrong now, there won't be later, and if there is something wrong now it will be later.  I just want to know...here's the control freak in my again...I better just get back to work!

Hyterography Scheduled & Pre-seed

So Friday is the big day!  I am having my hyterography done that morning, and hopefully that afternoon we can take Kyle's swimmers to S&W in Temple to get them checked out.  Fingers crossed that everything comes out ok.  I would just rather get tested early and find out nothing is wrong, then to wait longer and have something wrong that could have been fixed.  I know some don't understand the reason for testing, and some do :), but it seems like the understanding ears are fewer than those who yell to keep trying and relax.  I think I talk to too many people about it.  I have a select few that I talk openly about it and tell them everything, while there are others that know some info but not all of it.  Those that don't know it all seem to act like they do haha! I guess I just need to keep my mouth shut about it all, and just keep talking with my close friends about it...they seem to tell me not just what I want to hear, but what I need to hear--even if I don't want to hear it!

Anywho, fingers crossed it all comes out good and we just get told to keep practicing!

Can't forget!  We went and bought our first thing of Pre-Seed; for those of you who don't know what this is, it's a TTC friendly lube that mimics your natural lubrication and doesn't harm the sperm...it has actually been said to increase the chances!  I read people all over TTC  boards whooping and hollering about it, so I finally broke down and bought some....this sh!t ain't cheap; $20 for 9 uses, so hopefully it will help.  Kyle and I went to church Sunday, out to lunch, and to the mall to pick up my wedding ring (it was getting repaired).  Afterwards I told him I wanted to stop at CVS and pick some up, so we walk in and are standing at the condom/HPT/everything sex related aisle searching for it and can't find it!  Luckily, across the street is Walgreens, so we moseyed on over there and after a little more searching I found the last box...it seemed like it was at the very back of the very bottom shelf or something!  They put condoms out front and center, but TTC friendly lube gets hidden!  Haha!

My Appointment...

Well I went to talk with my OB/GYN about possible fertility testing and we are suppose to start next week.  They are doing a hysterography (on/around CD 10) to determine if my fallopian tubes are blocked and they will check the shape/condition of my uterus at that time.  The dr said that when they do the hysterography that they have to inject iodine into my uterus and see if my tubes are clear, and when they do that, it will actually open up a 3-6 month period of improved fertility (assuming nothing else is wrong) in which we may actually conceive (wootwoot).  Then on CD 22ish I have to go do the whole blood work workup to see if I'm ovulating, make sure horomones are ok, check for PCOS, and all that stuff.  He is also sending Kyle to get a sperm analysis just to ensure that his lil guys are all healthy and swimming straight--seems like Kyle is getting the easy way out here!  I have to air my who-who out to the radiologist and get poked and prodded, and all he has to do it fill up a cup!  Oh well, life isn't fair :P

I also had high blood pressure (can't remember if it was 144/65 or 154/65).  I asked if it was stress that could cause it, and he said not with as low as my heart rate was, so he recommends that I loose 10-15lbs to help take some stress off and it will only help me to be a little lower weight in the whole TTC process.  I'm 5'7 and as of yesterday I weigh 165.  For my height and age, I should be at 143-147.  It isn't that 165 is a lot because I don't feel it is and neither does my dr, the issue is that I weighed around 140 in October, 150 in March and now 165 in August--that's 25+/- pounds in less then a year.  I'm sure between, work, grad school, and TTC my body it just overloaded so that's why I've gained weight.  Better to get blood pressure and weight under control now then when it's too late or a lot more to loose...it would be harder then!

Well anywho, I guess this all means I have to figure out a new lifestyle to better support a healthier weight, and I get to go get poked at in a few days!  The things we do sometimes :) Oh well, it will be worth it in the end!  They can poke and prick me all they want, because it won't really matter when I have a baby to hold.

Getting nervous...

Well tomorrow is my appointment with my doctor to discuss possible options for testing.  I'm getting a little nervous, but not because I'm worried, but because I'm well...nervous.  I'm nervous something may be wrong, but I'm nervous nothing may be wrong either.  I know it's weird either way, but I'm just ready to know either way. I wasn't nervous until today, but now as the day goes on I get more and more nervous.  Kyle has a dentist appointment, so as long as he gets out in time, he'll be there too, but I'm still a little nervous.  Hopefully I will calm down by tomorrow, but I think I'll be nervous until I know more.  It just sucks that they can't test you for every possible issue in one test/shot.  Oh well, better stop worrying!

Headed Out

Well we just left Moore, MT and are headed to Billings for the PBR tonight and to catch our flight in the morning.  It is always hard to leave! A week is never enough time, especially since we wont be back for a year. I wish we could afford to make the trip more often, but fingers crossed that we come back next year with a baby cousin for the boys :)

Yellowstone Bound

Well we made it to Montana Friday morning! We've been busy visiting people and showing Jacob (my 17 year old brother) around Kyle's old stomping grounds. We are en route to Yellowstone as I write this, so the next day should be exciting...personally I'm hoping to see a moose & elk, that's my goal :)

The past few days have been very relaxing and not stressful at all! Kind of liking the Montana summers...but not enough to leave Texas for Montana horrible winters!!  Well my signal is in and out so I better post while I have a chance! Post soon!!

Been busy

Goodness I didn't realize I haves posted in so long! The last couple of weeks have been hectic...I've been trying to finish homework for this summer semester before our trip to see Kyle's family, so not much free time! We leave tomorrow morning for 9 days in Montana! I'm ready to go; the weather is great up there now...80s not 100s!!

I am getting antsy about my appointment in a couple of weeks, but I figure it will either put me at easy or confirm issues, either way we will work with what we are given. :) I'm feeling more and more optimistic about everything, and I'm to the point now that I'm not stressing or feeling pressure to get pregnant I'm just concerned. Fingers crossed that all is well and it's just taking a while!

Well I'm out for now, got to get packing!! I will try to post while I'm gone...

Changed Appointment

So I was looking at one of the 3, yes 3, apps that I have on my phone for tracking AF, O, BT, and BD and they all said I would O on Aug 22--assuming I don't get a BFP this cycle that's starting now.  Well, August 22 is the same day I had scheduled the appointment with my OB/GYN to talk about fertility testing...so going that day could be highly inconvenient depending on the type of testing he would suggest starting with.  I called to see if they had anything else available before then, preferably the week before.  They had one open August 9th, which is day 2 of the projected AF arrival for this next cycle.  That works out great I think!  If I get a BFP this cycle he could possibly confirm then, and if I get a BFN then I will be lined up for testing during my next O cycle!  Maybe that's fate...or conscience...we shall wait and see!  Fingers crossed & tons of BD this cycle!!!

Good week!

I had a good week this week, hopefully everyone else can say the same. AF is still here which is annoyingly long, but oh well. My blackberry broke this week so I got a new phone. Its a DROID and so far so good ...I really like that I can blog from here :)
So I told Kyle earlier this week that this month was not our lucky month and he was a little bummed I think ...he didn't say he was but he kind of acted like it. He wanted to be able to tell his parents while we are there this month too. I did realize on Tuesday though that based on my projected O day and fertile days that I may actually be able to test while we are there and find out! That would be neat!! Fingers crossed again...
Well im out y'all...hope everyone has a good one!!

Why hello AF...

So apparently AF has decided to stop in and say hello...3-4 days early this month!  I should have started Thursday, but no...AF is here on Monday instead!  Poo!  There went my happy Monday mood!  Guess my body just decided to spot for a week as an intro to her coming early!  Hating my body today!  Back to work...BLAH!

why i want this month...

So I've been extra hopeful this month because we are headed to Montana at the end of the month, and I would like to be able to tell his parents while we are there that there will be another grand baby.  We only make it up there once a year, so if we aren't this time, and get pregnant in the next couple months, we will basically go back next year with a baby.  I would just really like to go there, tell them, and bring the baby back next time; rather than go not pregnant and come back next year with a baby.  I know that's weird, but still I'd like to be able to tell them in person and not on the phone...just little things like that.  I'm 10dpo today, and I've POAS twice already, both negative, but 10dpo is only 35% accurate so I'm still hopeful.  Praying and crossing my fingers!!

Grrr....

I’m the kind of person that likes to plan a head of big/important things and have everything ready to go.  So I’m suppose to go to the Dr August 22 to discuss infertility testing.  I called the Dr to see if I could get the code things to find out how much I was going to have to pay out of pocket for testing—not that I would let money decide for me, I just want to be prepared for the costs.  And the lady that answered the phone told me she couldn’t tell me because I wasn’t scheduled for the procedures yet.  So I asked her if people just don’t find out until the bill comes, and she said typically.  Well I want to know now!  She told me to call my insurance company and they could tell me.  So I call them and get a guy…like I really want to tell some random guy oh yeah I may be infertile and want to know what it costs. Well, he was actually understanding.  He said the Dr should give me a code and then they can give me what my cost would be.  We went round and round and I told him what the lady told me, and he got upset she told me that because that’s not their policy.  Anyway…I ended up not knowing anymore then when I call the Dr’s office the first time…I just ended up getting really irritated with their office!  Stupid lady!

On a lighter note, I hope my BAM OPK from Tuesday works and I end up being able to call that lady back and tell her just FORGET IT! (and schedule me an ultrasound instead!) hehe!   Always got to be a little optimistic!

OPK Positive!

So I gave up peeing on HPT and now just abuse OPKs!  This week I'm suppose to O and started testing on Sunday looking for the positive OPK to know I really was.  I usually only use OPKs the week I think I'm going to O, and try to do it around the same time every day that week.  So I started Sunday....Sunday barely anything, Monday was faint (but if you squinted your eyes and turned your head sideways you could see it!), then Tuesday I got pee crazy and decided to test in the morning and test again when I got home to compare...I was SHOCKED!  The result line was darker than the control line and popped up with seconds!  Woohoo I screamed from the bathroom!  Molly (our dachshund) comes running to check out the noise, and I hear Kyle in the living room..."ummm.....ok...everything come out ok....."  Haha poor guy!  Anyways, just super excited and thought I'd share!

Below is a pic of the sticks...don't worry I cropped out the tickled on part!

Quote I Needed

So I have a little calendar on my desk that has daily quotes or sayings and every morning I come in and flip it and read today's message.  Today's was certainly one I needed:

"'For I know the plans I have for you' declares the Lord, 'plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plants to give you hope and a future'"--Jeremiah 29:11

I certainly need to remember that God has a plan for all, and that my timing doesn't always mesh with his...there is a reason for it all and a reason things aren't necessarily happening right now.  I may get my baby this month, I am not, but irregardless if will be ok!  I stress about it from time to time, and get upset with myself, Kyle, and others but it is all part of the plan.  Who knows one of my little eggs & Kyle's swimmers may have a cure for cancer!  I just need to remember this quote on my 'down' days!  Have a great day everyone!

Made 1st Appointment

First off...I'm feeling tons better!  AF has left and I got my new order of OPK in the mail last week, and when I went to put them up I found that I had 3 or 4 from my first order hiding!  Ready for this month!  This month is the month, I can feel it!!

While I am hopeful this month is the month, I am realistic and made an appointment with my OB/GYN to start testing to make sure there isn't something wrong.  I called today to ask when I need to make the appointment since my Dr said I should go in September, and the receptionist said I need to now because he doesn't have many left open.  Then she says, I can get you tomorrow at 1pm, I was like whoa not quite ready for that soon.  So I'm going August 22nd at 3pm, unless I get a BFP before then.  I'm a little nervous, but only because I'm not 100% sure what to expect...like what are we going to do.  I'm not worried about if there ends up being something wrong, because if there is there's not much I can do about it, but I'll have to work with it.  I know people say, oh well nothing wrong and you'll find that out and get pregnant then, but I really just want to put my mind at ease if nothing else.  It's just that if you're not trying to get pregnant then you don't understand what goes through your mind, the worries, the fears, the anxiety.  It isn't easy just to 'not worry' or 'not think about it' it's something that's always there.  I may not think about it 24/7, but it's something I think about at least 3-4 times a day.  Anyway, I've been researching what goes on at this appointment and I've found varying articles, and it makes it sound like it varies from doctor to doctor.  I think I'm just going to call my doctor this week and find out exactly what's going to happen.  Anyway, wish me luck this cycle, and if nothing else, I'd like some pointers on what's going to happen :)

Thanks for reading!

OPKs and Sick

So I was going through a drawer in my bathroom and realized that I only have 1 OP strip left!!  So I ran to the computer and just ordered me another set!  Must admit that I love ordering from Amazon.com.  The kit was $3.79 for 40 strips and 10 pregnancy test...I don't care so much about the pregnancy test strips...I have a ton of those!  Shipping costs more than the actual product; I love that!

So I decided a few weeks back that I wasn't going to randomly POAS anymore, and that I'm only going to POAS if I'm officially late.  For me, every time I POAS and got a negative (even if I expected it) I was still a little let down.  In the first say....4 or 5 months of trying I POAS every other day from the day I could test until AF arrived.  I haven't peed on one in almost a month now!  I did use one in April-ish, because I was feeling horrible and just wanted to rule that out--secretly hoping to rule it in really I guess.

When I ordered my first set of OPK I thought for sure I would only need one set and would use the HPTs up before my OPKs, but here I am ordering a second time.  Maybe this one will be the last set I need.  Crossing my fingers!

So I was home sick yesterday; I had a fever and felt like crap.  I did a little bit of homework (I'm working on my Masters in management) and ended up stalking blogs.  I have found that my best friend was right and it's hard to stop searching blogs once you start so I feel like that's all I do now.  Well blog stalk and stalk the boards at TheBump.com.  My friend also turned me onto Pinterest.com and I have a board titled 'maybe a baby wichman' where I have been 'pinning' (saving/bookmarking) all the baby stuff I like.  Everything from maternity pictures to nursery decorations!  Pinerest is awesome!  I highly recommend checking it out!  It is basically a virtual bookmark  system that allows you to save pictures that you like.  It rocks!  Thanks Dana!!  If you join follow me laura6728!

Off to bed everybody...still kind of feel like I was hit by a bus!  Night!

Dear AF...I could stand to lose you....

So AF decided to make an appearance today--a whole day early.  I'm thinking of writing her some hate mail and seeing if she gets the message.  Maybe she could pass the message on to my ovaries and uterus as well. I'm still trying to figure out why nature lets women find out they are or aren't pregnant when they are PMSing.  I'm already moody from possibly starting and then I get a big fat negative on the test.  Another way nature sucks I guess!  Can you tell I'm moody and hormonal...that's compliments of AF

Nature has got it all wrong...

I got this from a new follower Diana and I think it's soooo true!

"Nature has got it all wrong: When you are younger, it should be harder to get pregnant, and as you get older it should be easier. When you are so ready, you can't do it to save your life. And when you are 21, you are so not ready, but you are ripe as can be. The eggs should become more developed the older you get, not die slowly from the day you're born. That's one thing God got wrong."- Halle Berry

Frustration

Frustration is starting to settle in...I'm not sure if it's frustration so much as jealousy. Seems like everywhere I turn or go I find out someone else I know is pregnant or fixing to have a baby. I am happy for all of them really, but I'm just ready for my own. I don't care if it's a boy or girl, I just want it to have 10 fingers, 10 toes, and to be happy & healthy. I don't feel like I want too much, but maybe God isn't ready for us to have a Baby Wichman.

**pitty party over**

On a serious note, my doctor told me in March that if I'm not pregnant this summer to make an appointment for September. So this means that if I don't get pregnant this cycle (June) or the next cycle (July) then I will have to make the appointment now in order to get one in September. It just sucks! I'm hoping and praying that if I end up having to make the appointment that I will get to change it from fertility testing to a confirmation appointment.

Wow!

Talk about life seeming to get away from me; I didn't realize it had been so many days since I last posted! It seems like I haven't been able to find time to much of anything the last few days...not even time to search TTC blogs :(

Anywho! So I got off BC in Oct/Nov and started taking prenatal vitamins, and ever since then I feel like I am retaining water and gaining weight like nobody's business! I knew you could gain weight getting on BC but who knew you would getting off of it! This is getting to be pretty ridiculous. I'm finding myself not necessarily hungry, just not satisfied if that makes sense...I just can't seem to find whatever it is my body is craving! I would like to think that it's just pregnancy cravings, but those wouldn't come until later...unless I'm one of those chicks that could be on "I didn't know I was pregnant" and I'm secretly about to bust! Hmmm.....but regardless, I need to get this under control. I try eating right, but can't seem to no matter how hard I try! I need to be healthy for baby when God decides I'm ready for one. I try to eat healthy, secretly thinking that I may have a bundle of joy growing and I just don't know yet, but then when AF comes I throw that idea out the window and eat everything in sight for a couple days. Maybe that's my problem...self control! ha!

Been a few days...

Been a few days since my last post...I've been in Toronto at a conference for work. It was great, had fun, didn't really want to leave! If you've never been I highly recommend visiting!! Even though I was out of town I still temped and everything seemed level. This weekend will be a good weekend though if all the projections are right! Anyway, just wanted to update why I feel off the face of the Earth for a few days :) back to my waiting at the airport...apparently there was a bad storm in Dallas last night...something about hail and high winds...anyway, our 11:30 flight out of Toronto was canceled, so they booked us a flight to Houston at 5:30! That means 6 hours of airport sitting and waiting, waiting and sitting! Then after we got our tickets we had to go through customs; they must get their customer service tips from Walmart! They had 35 booths, only 5 were open! Then three people left for lunch and they brought in 1 backup. That was an hour and half of my life I will not get back. So here I sit and wait, wait and sit! Facebook and thebump.com here I come!!

Nut Shell

So our journey began in November 2010. While laying in bed one night Kyle asked if I was ready for babies (at this point he knew I had been ready), and I replied with I ‘m just waiting on you :). So as luck may have it, my next O cycle was in two weeks and we were able to start right away. In December 2010 we had a positive on the HPT for about 4 days, and then AF came and the negative/disappointment came as well. At the advice of my best friend Dana I made a preconception appointment and met with my OB/GYN in March 2011. He was able to answer my concerns about an ovarian cyst I had rupture in the summer of 2009, and put my mind at somewhat of an ease on if having sinus tachycardia would cause any issues convieing or during pregnancy—I was really just glad that all the advice he gave me I was already doing! I was already on a prenantal vitamin and was using OPK.

We have been trying now for six cycles and no bambino’s yet. That is basically a nut shell of how we got to the point we are at today!

The Purpose

So after much thought and deliberation, I've decided to start a blog to record our journey of TTC. A part of me wants a place vent about the frustrations I'm having along the way, but I also hope someone will stumble across them and it can help them in some way shape or form.