My Very Own...

So, I'm out of work today because I'm sick!  I woke up somewhere between 1am & 2am and was sweating my butt off with the chills and I pretty much felt like I got hit by a bus!  My pjs were soaked and I feel like crap.  I woke up around 6am and decided I didn't feel up to par enough to go to work, so around 6:30 I called my boss and told her I wasn't feeling good and wouldn't be in today.  Kyle ended up calling in today too, so we both rolled over and went back to sleep.  I felt like crap most of the morning, and while watching Maury and eating a bowl of vegetable soup, I picked up my phone and started counting my days until AF comes to visit.  Well last week I was spotting, bloated, moody, emotional, etc. just as I am every month when AF comes.  Only...SHE NEVER CAME!  Ok, ok Laura calm down there is a simple explanation for everything...I O'd late by like 3 days. Ok so if I O'd late then I should start 3 days late.  My projected start date was Sunday (yesterday) and I didn't start.  At this point Kyle leaves to run to town and by some seed to drill in the pasture for the cows.  So I'm thinking to myself that I don't really feel like I'm going to start today or something; the bloating and mild cramps were gone.  At this point I'm telling myself that I'm paranoid and just letting myself get my hopes up, but I decided to go test...worst case I'm not pregnant and not out anything but a HPT.  So I go pee and lay the stick down in front of me on the floor, and I'm fixing to stand up when I see the line start coming in...not any line THE line! I thought to my self, oh shit! and I jumped up and took it into the bigger part of the bathroom and sure enough there were two freaking lines!  TWO, count that 1, 2! I picked up my cell phone and call Kyle to see if he's almost home...what do I hear?  His cell phone ringing on the counter...ugh he never has his phone with him! Then I hear his truck pulling into the yard, and I meet him at the door.  He comes walking up on the deck with a can crusher, and I ask if he got me something?  He said yes, and I told him I had something for him too.  I told him I'd trade, and he put out his hand and I put the test in his hand and he hands me the can crusher.  He looks at it, looks at me, looks at it, looks at me. And says what does that mean?  I smiled and he says, you're pregnant?!?  I said yeah and started crying!  He gave me a huge squeeze and just held me.  I was ecstatic and he was happy!  I just didn't know what to say and he just smiled and chuckled!  So we went on with the day and I kept periodically checking the stick like the results were going to magically disappear or something.  This evening after supper I decided to pee on a digital one, just to further confirm that I wasn't misreading the first test, and it popped up pregnant with no not in front of it! Pregnant, that's me, that's my status now!  Pregnant!  I called my doctors nurse this afternoon to see when I needed to schedule a confirmation appointment and she said to schedule it now for after the 15th of October, so at 2:20pm Friday, October 21 we will officially get to see our bambino!  So ecstatic!

BFP...just not mine...

Well there is going to be a baby in the family...my sister is expecting baby #2!!  I found out a few weeks back, but just now wanted to post about it in case something happened.  Must say that I secretly hope she's having a little girl :)  I'd like to have the first boy...selfish I know, but I'd like to :)  Her due date is in April, maybe she'll have it early...like March 30th...nothing special that day, but it's my birthday!

So I must say how I found out!  It was August 19th, and my sister was at my house because she was going to my HSG with me since Kyle had to work.  So I was holding my niece, who just turned 3, and was telling her how she needs to tee-tee in the potty like a big girl--she is anti-using the potty and has no interest AT ALL!--anyway, I was telling her how she needed to be a big girl because what if mommy and daddy had another baby and then they would have to wipe the baby's booty and hers!  We talked for a couple minutes back and forth about it, and then she says "my mommy has a baby in her hinny."  I rolled it off and said whatever, she repeated a little louder "my MOMMY has a BABY in her hinny."  I laughed and glanced at my sister who would NOT make eye contact with me at all!  I said something to my niece again and she yelled in her sweet little voice 'MY MOMMY HAS A BABY IN HER HINNY!!!!" I looked at my sister and she had a couple of tears rolling down her face and I asked if she had a baby in her hinny, and she said, 'well not my hinny.'  I was soooo happy!  She said she didn't want to tell me yet, certainly not on the day when I was going to get tested for our TTC issues.  I thought it was adorable how my niece told me, and thought my sisters reaction as her daughter was telling me was hilarious!  Definitely a memory I will forever cherish!

Since then, they have told my parents, brother, and a couple other people.  My niece will not even acknowledge the possibility of the baby being a boy.  She wants a baby 'gir' as she says, really bad!  It's too cute, you can ask her well what if it's a boy, and she responds 'what if its a gir?'  Sometimes it's like seriously, is she only 3?!?

Well I need to wrap this up!  Talk with you soon!

Blood Work Results

My goodness work has been crazy!  By the time I get home I'm so tired...too tired to blog...too tired to PIN!  What's wrong with me?!?

So I went yesterday morning and got my blood work done.  I got my blood work results in today and everything look normal.  Thyroid was a 1.37, Progesterone was 10, and something else I can't remember the name of was a 13.  I asked what the next step was and they said we aren't doing anything else until they get Kyle's results in.  I'm hoping he will go get them done ASAP!  Just wanted to update real quick...back to work!

Today

Well I went to the hysterograph today.  My uterus shape is good and my tubes are now clear; I had blockages in both tubes.  The Dr. & nurse were super nice & explained everything before we started and as they did it.  It was neat to see my junk on the screen too!  It was very uncomfortable and as the day went on pain kept coming and going in waves; a 3.5 hour nap helped though! As I laid on the table with tears streaming down my face I had to remind myself it was all worth it & would be in the end.  The dr said since the plumbing looks good it could be hormones...what me hormonal?!? Haha! I'm doing that testing at the end of the month anyway so no biggie. Hopefully the hormone tests come back normal too, I'm really hoping for a green flag on everything!
Kyle wasn't able to go with me as planned, he had to work and has to all weekend.  Not sure when he will make it for his testing, but hopefully soon! Luckily my sister Emily was able to go with me; not sure what I'd do without her! She wasn't able to go back with me, but it helped to know she was there waiting on me. :) thanks Emily!
It still baffles me how some people get pregnant without really trying while others have difficulty; I guess that's just nature.  It isn't alway even or fair, but it's life.

Sanity

Hi, my name is Laura, and I lack sanity today!

I'm having a mini freak out today.  Not sure that the testing is a good idea.  I have so many thoughts running through my head, and poor Dana is having to listen to them all!  I <3 you Dana!!  While I don't always like what she says, it's always what I need to bring me back to reality...she's just having a difficult time throwing that reality at me today.  I just, I just....don't know!  I am a bit of a control freak you could say.  I like to know what's going on, when it's going on, and everything; not just about baby making, everything!  No wonder I had high blood pressure at my last appointment...

Anyway, I'm starting to think I'm crazy...nuts...psycho...whatever.  I know we haven't been trying to terribly long, but at the same time I feel like its been years.  Is this a good idea?  Is it a bad idea?  Hell if I know!  Uggghhh! I just have so many mixed emotions today about it all.  Maybe people are right, may be we should wait and try longer.  I guess it's too late now, better now then later right.  If there's nothing wrong now, there won't be later, and if there is something wrong now it will be later.  I just want to know...here's the control freak in my again...I better just get back to work!

Hyterography Scheduled & Pre-seed

So Friday is the big day!  I am having my hyterography done that morning, and hopefully that afternoon we can take Kyle's swimmers to S&W in Temple to get them checked out.  Fingers crossed that everything comes out ok.  I would just rather get tested early and find out nothing is wrong, then to wait longer and have something wrong that could have been fixed.  I know some don't understand the reason for testing, and some do :), but it seems like the understanding ears are fewer than those who yell to keep trying and relax.  I think I talk to too many people about it.  I have a select few that I talk openly about it and tell them everything, while there are others that know some info but not all of it.  Those that don't know it all seem to act like they do haha! I guess I just need to keep my mouth shut about it all, and just keep talking with my close friends about it...they seem to tell me not just what I want to hear, but what I need to hear--even if I don't want to hear it!

Anywho, fingers crossed it all comes out good and we just get told to keep practicing!

Can't forget!  We went and bought our first thing of Pre-Seed; for those of you who don't know what this is, it's a TTC friendly lube that mimics your natural lubrication and doesn't harm the sperm...it has actually been said to increase the chances!  I read people all over TTC  boards whooping and hollering about it, so I finally broke down and bought some....this sh!t ain't cheap; $20 for 9 uses, so hopefully it will help.  Kyle and I went to church Sunday, out to lunch, and to the mall to pick up my wedding ring (it was getting repaired).  Afterwards I told him I wanted to stop at CVS and pick some up, so we walk in and are standing at the condom/HPT/everything sex related aisle searching for it and can't find it!  Luckily, across the street is Walgreens, so we moseyed on over there and after a little more searching I found the last box...it seemed like it was at the very back of the very bottom shelf or something!  They put condoms out front and center, but TTC friendly lube gets hidden!  Haha!

My Appointment...

Well I went to talk with my OB/GYN about possible fertility testing and we are suppose to start next week.  They are doing a hysterography (on/around CD 10) to determine if my fallopian tubes are blocked and they will check the shape/condition of my uterus at that time.  The dr said that when they do the hysterography that they have to inject iodine into my uterus and see if my tubes are clear, and when they do that, it will actually open up a 3-6 month period of improved fertility (assuming nothing else is wrong) in which we may actually conceive (wootwoot).  Then on CD 22ish I have to go do the whole blood work workup to see if I'm ovulating, make sure horomones are ok, check for PCOS, and all that stuff.  He is also sending Kyle to get a sperm analysis just to ensure that his lil guys are all healthy and swimming straight--seems like Kyle is getting the easy way out here!  I have to air my who-who out to the radiologist and get poked and prodded, and all he has to do it fill up a cup!  Oh well, life isn't fair :P

I also had high blood pressure (can't remember if it was 144/65 or 154/65).  I asked if it was stress that could cause it, and he said not with as low as my heart rate was, so he recommends that I loose 10-15lbs to help take some stress off and it will only help me to be a little lower weight in the whole TTC process.  I'm 5'7 and as of yesterday I weigh 165.  For my height and age, I should be at 143-147.  It isn't that 165 is a lot because I don't feel it is and neither does my dr, the issue is that I weighed around 140 in October, 150 in March and now 165 in August--that's 25+/- pounds in less then a year.  I'm sure between, work, grad school, and TTC my body it just overloaded so that's why I've gained weight.  Better to get blood pressure and weight under control now then when it's too late or a lot more to loose...it would be harder then!

Well anywho, I guess this all means I have to figure out a new lifestyle to better support a healthier weight, and I get to go get poked at in a few days!  The things we do sometimes :) Oh well, it will be worth it in the end!  They can poke and prick me all they want, because it won't really matter when I have a baby to hold.

Getting nervous...

Well tomorrow is my appointment with my doctor to discuss possible options for testing.  I'm getting a little nervous, but not because I'm worried, but because I'm well...nervous.  I'm nervous something may be wrong, but I'm nervous nothing may be wrong either.  I know it's weird either way, but I'm just ready to know either way. I wasn't nervous until today, but now as the day goes on I get more and more nervous.  Kyle has a dentist appointment, so as long as he gets out in time, he'll be there too, but I'm still a little nervous.  Hopefully I will calm down by tomorrow, but I think I'll be nervous until I know more.  It just sucks that they can't test you for every possible issue in one test/shot.  Oh well, better stop worrying!

Headed Out

Well we just left Moore, MT and are headed to Billings for the PBR tonight and to catch our flight in the morning.  It is always hard to leave! A week is never enough time, especially since we wont be back for a year. I wish we could afford to make the trip more often, but fingers crossed that we come back next year with a baby cousin for the boys :)

Yellowstone Bound

Well we made it to Montana Friday morning! We've been busy visiting people and showing Jacob (my 17 year old brother) around Kyle's old stomping grounds. We are en route to Yellowstone as I write this, so the next day should be exciting...personally I'm hoping to see a moose & elk, that's my goal :)

The past few days have been very relaxing and not stressful at all! Kind of liking the Montana summers...but not enough to leave Texas for Montana horrible winters!!  Well my signal is in and out so I better post while I have a chance! Post soon!!