Grrr....

I’m the kind of person that likes to plan a head of big/important things and have everything ready to go.  So I’m suppose to go to the Dr August 22 to discuss infertility testing.  I called the Dr to see if I could get the code things to find out how much I was going to have to pay out of pocket for testing—not that I would let money decide for me, I just want to be prepared for the costs.  And the lady that answered the phone told me she couldn’t tell me because I wasn’t scheduled for the procedures yet.  So I asked her if people just don’t find out until the bill comes, and she said typically.  Well I want to know now!  She told me to call my insurance company and they could tell me.  So I call them and get a guy…like I really want to tell some random guy oh yeah I may be infertile and want to know what it costs. Well, he was actually understanding.  He said the Dr should give me a code and then they can give me what my cost would be.  We went round and round and I told him what the lady told me, and he got upset she told me that because that’s not their policy.  Anyway…I ended up not knowing anymore then when I call the Dr’s office the first time…I just ended up getting really irritated with their office!  Stupid lady!

On a lighter note, I hope my BAM OPK from Tuesday works and I end up being able to call that lady back and tell her just FORGET IT! (and schedule me an ultrasound instead!) hehe!   Always got to be a little optimistic!

OPK Positive!

So I gave up peeing on HPT and now just abuse OPKs!  This week I'm suppose to O and started testing on Sunday looking for the positive OPK to know I really was.  I usually only use OPKs the week I think I'm going to O, and try to do it around the same time every day that week.  So I started Sunday....Sunday barely anything, Monday was faint (but if you squinted your eyes and turned your head sideways you could see it!), then Tuesday I got pee crazy and decided to test in the morning and test again when I got home to compare...I was SHOCKED!  The result line was darker than the control line and popped up with seconds!  Woohoo I screamed from the bathroom!  Molly (our dachshund) comes running to check out the noise, and I hear Kyle in the living room..."ummm.....ok...everything come out ok....."  Haha poor guy!  Anyways, just super excited and thought I'd share!

Below is a pic of the sticks...don't worry I cropped out the tickled on part!

Quote I Needed

So I have a little calendar on my desk that has daily quotes or sayings and every morning I come in and flip it and read today's message.  Today's was certainly one I needed:

"'For I know the plans I have for you' declares the Lord, 'plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plants to give you hope and a future'"--Jeremiah 29:11

I certainly need to remember that God has a plan for all, and that my timing doesn't always mesh with his...there is a reason for it all and a reason things aren't necessarily happening right now.  I may get my baby this month, I am not, but irregardless if will be ok!  I stress about it from time to time, and get upset with myself, Kyle, and others but it is all part of the plan.  Who knows one of my little eggs & Kyle's swimmers may have a cure for cancer!  I just need to remember this quote on my 'down' days!  Have a great day everyone!

Made 1st Appointment

First off...I'm feeling tons better!  AF has left and I got my new order of OPK in the mail last week, and when I went to put them up I found that I had 3 or 4 from my first order hiding!  Ready for this month!  This month is the month, I can feel it!!

While I am hopeful this month is the month, I am realistic and made an appointment with my OB/GYN to start testing to make sure there isn't something wrong.  I called today to ask when I need to make the appointment since my Dr said I should go in September, and the receptionist said I need to now because he doesn't have many left open.  Then she says, I can get you tomorrow at 1pm, I was like whoa not quite ready for that soon.  So I'm going August 22nd at 3pm, unless I get a BFP before then.  I'm a little nervous, but only because I'm not 100% sure what to expect...like what are we going to do.  I'm not worried about if there ends up being something wrong, because if there is there's not much I can do about it, but I'll have to work with it.  I know people say, oh well nothing wrong and you'll find that out and get pregnant then, but I really just want to put my mind at ease if nothing else.  It's just that if you're not trying to get pregnant then you don't understand what goes through your mind, the worries, the fears, the anxiety.  It isn't easy just to 'not worry' or 'not think about it' it's something that's always there.  I may not think about it 24/7, but it's something I think about at least 3-4 times a day.  Anyway, I've been researching what goes on at this appointment and I've found varying articles, and it makes it sound like it varies from doctor to doctor.  I think I'm just going to call my doctor this week and find out exactly what's going to happen.  Anyway, wish me luck this cycle, and if nothing else, I'd like some pointers on what's going to happen :)

Thanks for reading!

OPKs and Sick

So I was going through a drawer in my bathroom and realized that I only have 1 OP strip left!!  So I ran to the computer and just ordered me another set!  Must admit that I love ordering from Amazon.com.  The kit was $3.79 for 40 strips and 10 pregnancy test...I don't care so much about the pregnancy test strips...I have a ton of those!  Shipping costs more than the actual product; I love that!

So I decided a few weeks back that I wasn't going to randomly POAS anymore, and that I'm only going to POAS if I'm officially late.  For me, every time I POAS and got a negative (even if I expected it) I was still a little let down.  In the first say....4 or 5 months of trying I POAS every other day from the day I could test until AF arrived.  I haven't peed on one in almost a month now!  I did use one in April-ish, because I was feeling horrible and just wanted to rule that out--secretly hoping to rule it in really I guess.

When I ordered my first set of OPK I thought for sure I would only need one set and would use the HPTs up before my OPKs, but here I am ordering a second time.  Maybe this one will be the last set I need.  Crossing my fingers!

So I was home sick yesterday; I had a fever and felt like crap.  I did a little bit of homework (I'm working on my Masters in management) and ended up stalking blogs.  I have found that my best friend was right and it's hard to stop searching blogs once you start so I feel like that's all I do now.  Well blog stalk and stalk the boards at TheBump.com.  My friend also turned me onto Pinterest.com and I have a board titled 'maybe a baby wichman' where I have been 'pinning' (saving/bookmarking) all the baby stuff I like.  Everything from maternity pictures to nursery decorations!  Pinerest is awesome!  I highly recommend checking it out!  It is basically a virtual bookmark  system that allows you to save pictures that you like.  It rocks!  Thanks Dana!!  If you join follow me laura6728!

Off to bed everybody...still kind of feel like I was hit by a bus!  Night!

Dear AF...I could stand to lose you....

So AF decided to make an appearance today--a whole day early.  I'm thinking of writing her some hate mail and seeing if she gets the message.  Maybe she could pass the message on to my ovaries and uterus as well. I'm still trying to figure out why nature lets women find out they are or aren't pregnant when they are PMSing.  I'm already moody from possibly starting and then I get a big fat negative on the test.  Another way nature sucks I guess!  Can you tell I'm moody and hormonal...that's compliments of AF

Nature has got it all wrong...

I got this from a new follower Diana and I think it's soooo true!

"Nature has got it all wrong: When you are younger, it should be harder to get pregnant, and as you get older it should be easier. When you are so ready, you can't do it to save your life. And when you are 21, you are so not ready, but you are ripe as can be. The eggs should become more developed the older you get, not die slowly from the day you're born. That's one thing God got wrong."- Halle Berry

Frustration

Frustration is starting to settle in...I'm not sure if it's frustration so much as jealousy. Seems like everywhere I turn or go I find out someone else I know is pregnant or fixing to have a baby. I am happy for all of them really, but I'm just ready for my own. I don't care if it's a boy or girl, I just want it to have 10 fingers, 10 toes, and to be happy & healthy. I don't feel like I want too much, but maybe God isn't ready for us to have a Baby Wichman.

**pitty party over**

On a serious note, my doctor told me in March that if I'm not pregnant this summer to make an appointment for September. So this means that if I don't get pregnant this cycle (June) or the next cycle (July) then I will have to make the appointment now in order to get one in September. It just sucks! I'm hoping and praying that if I end up having to make the appointment that I will get to change it from fertility testing to a confirmation appointment.

Wow!

Talk about life seeming to get away from me; I didn't realize it had been so many days since I last posted! It seems like I haven't been able to find time to much of anything the last few days...not even time to search TTC blogs :(

Anywho! So I got off BC in Oct/Nov and started taking prenatal vitamins, and ever since then I feel like I am retaining water and gaining weight like nobody's business! I knew you could gain weight getting on BC but who knew you would getting off of it! This is getting to be pretty ridiculous. I'm finding myself not necessarily hungry, just not satisfied if that makes sense...I just can't seem to find whatever it is my body is craving! I would like to think that it's just pregnancy cravings, but those wouldn't come until later...unless I'm one of those chicks that could be on "I didn't know I was pregnant" and I'm secretly about to bust! Hmmm.....but regardless, I need to get this under control. I try eating right, but can't seem to no matter how hard I try! I need to be healthy for baby when God decides I'm ready for one. I try to eat healthy, secretly thinking that I may have a bundle of joy growing and I just don't know yet, but then when AF comes I throw that idea out the window and eat everything in sight for a couple days. Maybe that's my problem...self control! ha!